Nearly 50,000 healthcare personnel were infected with COVID-19 in February and March. Those who have survived are being hailed as “heroes” in the media. But some argue that calling frontline workers heroes ignores the systemic failures that continue to jeopardize their lives and well-being—failures we analyze in more detail in this accompanying article.
In our latest Tiny Spark podcast, we hear accounts from four frontline healthcare workers about the unsafe working conditions they have faced, their struggles with extreme anxiety and grief, and why they reject the “hero” label.
“I don’t feel like a hero,” Jane, a registered nurse, tells us, describing her utter frustration and anguish with the fact that she cannot save more lives. “We do have some good, positive outcomes. We do discharge people home, but it’s rare,” she says.
All four nurses we spoke to are immigrant women of color, just like many of those who work in the sector. By their request, we changed their names to protect their identities; all of them work in hospitals or nursing homes where there is COVID-19.
“We, as nurses, are supposed to make people better,” Lucy, another registered nurse, tells us. “We are supposed to provide support and healing. But when it comes to a situation like this, where you’re losing one or two or three a day, it’s very devastating. We are working tirelessly. We are trying so hard. It is a situation like I’ve never seen before.”
All four nurses say they lack adequate personal protective equipment, which jeopardizes not only their health, but the health of their colleagues, their families, and their patients. A vital form of protection for these frontline workers are N-95 respirator masks, which filter ninety-five percent of airborne particles, but there are widespread shortages.
Working on a COVID floor, Jane says she is forced to wear the same N-95 mask for four shifts before her hospital will provide her with a new one. Prior to COVID, she would use them for a single patient encounter and would then dispose of it immediately. Jane estimates that now she takes her mask on and off up to 100 times over the course of four shifts.
“You’re working close to a patient, you’re listening to their lungs, you’re changing them, you’re toileting them, you’re doing wound care,” she explains. “So, you’re in very close contact with the patient who a